Emotions

This last week has been a hurdle for me. My emotions have been all over the map. I am not sure if I am up or down. I am exhausted and emotional drained. My son became very ill and required hospilization to help stabilize him. This illness brought my whole family together in an emotional turmoil. There sure is a big lack of communication. Over the years I have isolated myself for whatever reason. Several poor decisions that I had made cemented the separation. Though these last five years I have been working on changing for the better. I put myself through college. I am less then 10 credits shy from bachelors degree in Social Science I just am little busy being mom, wife and a nurse. I have used this blog to express my feelings or perceptions as a way to get them out of my head. Some of the blogs are not very flattering and attack my families character. Despite my anger and spiteful spirit I love my family and would give anything for them. This blogging has in sense been therapy though I am willing to admit I should seek out some personal therapy for some private issues that I will not post. I have found it always easier to write then talk, my tongue gets in the way. I am ready for healing and progress.