Not Myself

I have been just not myself for awhile and it is getting very old. A day has not gone by without these headaches. Now other things have started to happen. I look at things and want to say something about it but the words never make it to my lips, I was embarrassed when I forgot how to fill in the amount on check, I just stared at it and held up the line. I have now switched doctors and have an appointment with a Neurologist. I am not sure how to analyze this. I have made several attempts to work only to fall very ill before going or having to be sent home because I can not perform. This brings me to tears on most days. I am embarrassed because I have been stumbling, stuttering and forgetting routine things. Though I have found if I just minimize my activity and stay a head of the pain I am much happier and have moments of “normality”.