Back in the saddle again

Well I have completed a week of work after being off a month. What a week it was. I come back and I had a senior student to precept. A very sick patient that on the on my second twelve took a turn for the worse. I spent half of my shift stabilizing them and transferring him to CCU.
I knew I did not feel well I was living it what I did not realize is how awful I looked. People have spent all week just telling me how worried they were. Especially the day they wheeled me to the ER unable to talk. I am much better then I was but I am not 100% or sure if I will ever be again. I am not sure for the solution either. It is one of those half a dozen of one or the other. Medication that prevents the headaches from controlling me make me stupid at times. I hate this. My job requires me to think on my feet and there is time I feel I am in a time warp on these new meds but no headache.