Narcissim

I went to a nursing seminar this last week about Evidence and Ethics, Empowering Nurses in 2005. What struck me the most was the 2nd half of the first guest speaker Melissa A Fitzpatrick RN, MSN,FAAN. The topic was about "toxic" work enviroment. I was especially brought to attention about the narcissitic personalities. That sure hit home, not so much in my work enviroment as in my personal life. As the speaker started to describe what the traits of a narcissitic person was I sat there and nodded my head in agreement as a picture slowly unfolded. She was talking about my father and his seedlings, my brothers. Wow, has that been the problem all along. Here I was conforting this head on blaming myself for my inability to see good in myself when my entire thirty eight years I have not recieved one positive feedback item from these male patriach figures in my family, never. I am pretty sure of it. When I sat and started to think about it so I could write this down with the best of my ability and with honesty, there was no time in my life. I have had many accomplishments big and small. Why don't they see this?
Now I love these men of my family but (here It comes) I just do not care any more. I have said my peace. I am a strong independent women who is proud of her accomplishments in life and despite popular opinion I deserve what I have sowed good and bad. I am about to start another journey in life and these days I am preparing with confidence and honesty.