Slowing down

Slow is not in my vocabulary, I can not sit still for any great length of time my mind is always racing. This has become a problem because I have huge knots in my neck from muscle tension and my patience for things are wearing. I hurt my toe and was forced to slow down at work and this truly bothered me. I think I had a epiphany. The next thing that eats at me is I am unsure how to slow done. Todays society feeds into this need for speed. I know intellectually that I really need to step off this fast paced treadmill of life and walk at my speed. I am not sure if it is fear well I take that back it is fear. The fear of the unknown, the fear of rejection and the fear of losing control of my life. It is a fact that stress can facilitate disease and stress so why I want to wallow in this cesspool of doom is besides me. I do know that I am trying to make small changes though very difficult. Life can have a lot of dissapointment along with its joys.